Monday, October 01, 2012

Home

I just spent four days on vacation and when I got home and we opened the door this wave of emotion hit me.  The room and the whole house pretty much hugged me and everything felt right in the world.

I've been thinking a lot about returning here lately and why I want to do that and what I hope to accomplish.  Since leaving this blog and my second blog I've never really felt at home when I came to write and share on the internet.  I think part of it was because I felt like I had to leave, like the house (being the blog) was virtually on fire and it was time to scram.  I never wanted to leave but I had to and I missed it ever since.  I tried new blogs, anonymous, always moving, always trying to feel at home but I never did.

Maybe if I come back here, maybe things will fall into place and blogging will be a happy place for me again.

I think coming here though, dusting off Tales from the Bathroom Scale and assuming the identity of "Diet Chick" has some responsibility and I think that is a good thing.  Multiple factors have brought me to a weight I'm not happy with and I want to change that.

I'm not going hard core 1200 calories and working out 5 days a week, maybe that will come, but for now I want to make better choices, I want to do more activities, like swimming.  I want to become more aware of my eating, why I eat the way I do and how to be more aware of triggers and options available besides chocolate when those bad days hit.  I also really want to be more involved in sharing what I know and can find out about plus size clothes.  I wish more folks would do this.  Clothes shopping and looking cute in general is so difficult being plus size and I'm really trying to make an effort in that department.  I'm also on a budget so whatever I share you can do as well.

And finally I've always loved sharing my life on the internet and will continue to do so.  I've been married for seven years (in seven days) and I love being married and I love my husband to pieces.  We also have 5 cats, I know, it's crazy town, and each cat has his own story of how he ended up making us crazy cat people.  I love to decorate my house and share my house.  I love to plan parties and decorate and design menus and invitations (Halloween dinner party is coming up).

I feel like this will be a place where I will share my daily life and interject my weight loss story along the way.  Please tune in, tell your friends.

I'm back.

33 comments:

  1. Wow 7 years, that's amazing. I have been reading you since before your wedding -- but after you were engaged (found you from the book). I'm about to hit 1 year with my hubs, and I've been through the weight loss and regain roller coaster just like you. Met him close to my thinnest, now pretty much back to my heaviest, and trying not to blimp out more. Ugh. I've had good luck with plus size clothes lately at Macy's.

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    1. I hate that I gained all this weight since meeting my husband. It makes me feel pretty crappy when I think I was wearing a size 6 during our first dates. Hmm, stressful.

      I've heard about Macy's from other folks as well. We do not have a Macy's here so I've been shopping there online (I love the Martha Stewart kitchen linens - yay aqua) and I just keep bombing out. I did once order a dress there and it was nothing like what I was expecting, I think I returned it. I'll keep looking there, though.

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  2. You've been married SEVEN years?? I remember anxiously waiting for you to post the story of your wedding and even watched the southern weather that week, so worried about rain on your wedding day!
    I've always enjoyed your writing.

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    1. I know, I can't believe it's been seven years either. I can't believe I've been blogging for 10 years. That's nuts. I do not feel any older either and that's just weird. Though I don't trust my body like I used to, like can I do that, not just because I'm overweight but because I'm old too. ;-)

      Oh, the rain, we were just talking about that after going to an outdoor wedding in Florida where it was beautiful and perfect. Seeing her tent reminded me that even though the rain cleared at about 11 am the morning of our wedding, the ground would have still been soaked, not to mention the post rain steamfest. That wedding was a very "what if" moment for me. What would it have been like had we been outside.

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    1. Thanks to you and Denise my dear :-)

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    2. I am so glad you're back, too. Can we meet for coffee and conversation every week???

      xoxo

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    3. I'm so glad you're back and I love what you've done with the place. (Of course your blog is gorgeous, you're a decorator!)

      Can we have coffee together just the three of us every week???

      xoxo

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    4. Yes, please every week, it would be so awesome!

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  4. I've been a reader since.....hmm...almost feels like the beginning, actually--10 years? Is that possible?
    I'm glad you are back home--I enjoyed the other blog as well but this URL is you :-)

    --melissa

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    1. It has been 10 years, I cannot believe it. Thanks so much.

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  5. It's great to see you back here! (The chevron background is a nice touch, too.)

    I've been reading since the early TOABS days, but I think the last time I commented was when you shut down your next-to-last last blog (other than on Flickr--still love to see the blue house evolving!). Then happened upon the last by accident some months ago, & was happy to see you were still writing about home/life/kitties.

    I've been every size there is, & hate hate hated most of the plus-sized stuff I found in the stores. When I did find something cute and flattering, I was always like, "See, you all CAN make something good. So WTF is wrong with you people??"

    (In my continuous yo-yo life, I'm now a size 12. Would like to lose some more weight, but I'm not counting on it...)

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    1. Size 12 is my goal! Ha ha. I agree about the clothes, I know it's possible, cotton and plus size can go hand in hand.

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    2. sorry about the double posting! I didn't think I'd hit publish on the first.

      I think 12 would probably be my goal--I've lost about 30 lb. very slooowly over 3 .5 years--but I have Type 2 diabetes, and a few more lbs. could make a big difference in my blood glucose...

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    3. (and the latest 30 was after already losing 20+. With lots of re-gains along the way.)

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    4. We are all victims of the yo-yo. This would all be so much easier if we knew maintenance was the easy part. It's not. I think that's why I'm so hesitant, I want to know I can stay there when I lose it. Of course, the alternative just continuing to gain is out of the question so something has to be done. The diabetes definitely takes the lead on what your body needs. Good for you, seriously, it's so hard to keep up the fight!

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  6. It's great to see you back here! (The chevron background is lovely, too.)

    I've been reading since the early TOABS days, but I think the last time I commented was when you shut down your next-to-last blog (other than on Flickr--still love to see the blue house evolving). Then happened upon the last incarnation by accident some months ago, & was happy to see you were still writing about home/life/kitties.

    I've been every size there is, & hate hate hated most of the plus-sized stuff I found in the stores. When I did find something cute and flattering, I was always like, "See, you all CAN make something good. So WTF is wrong with you people??"

    (In my continuous yo-yo life, I'm now a size 12. Would like to lose some more weight, but I'm not counting on it...)

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  7. Good for you! Have you seen the commercial for Litter Genie? I thought of you and your cats when I saw it.

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    1. I've looked into the litter genie, I just looked at it again. I'm concerned about the cost of the bags. I'm not sure how fast I would go through them. I don't mind my Ziploc method (I buy in bulk from Costco) and what I like is the idea that I could scoop all throughout the day. But that would go through more bags so I'm concerned. At $8 a replacement it seems expensive. The website says one cat can last up to 2 months. Four cats is 2 weeks. I have 5 so now we're down to a week and a half or so. I'm just not sure it's cost effective for me. And there are mixed messages about the smell factor. That said, you never know with me. Tomorrow, I just may go buy one. ;-)

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  8. Yay!!!!! LOVED your blog. Esp now that other blogs like Dooce have gone WAY downhill. As for clothes, I know it may sound weird, but Gap maternity clothes fit me well sometimes because I'm overweight not in a shapely way but in a beer gut kinda way. The stretch those clothes have can be more flattering on my body. Plus they are longer and lengthen out my upper body too.

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    1. I hate the Cami posts, Oh my god, I can't hit next fast enough on my google reader. I don't even know why I dislike them so, Cami just got a cat for heaven's sake, I should love her. I think blogs in general have changed so much over the years, they are so different now. It's so hard to be very personal or controversial because anyone anywhere could be reading you (or, of course trolls). I miss the old days, I want to write about all my messy stuff. It was so cathartic for me. That's what made blogs fun. I'm so interested in Dooce's journey with her divorce but instead we get photos of Cami with the next weird outfit or another look at my kid photo (not that there's anything wrong with that). To me, I miss what blogs used to be about, experiencing someone else's journey in such an intimate, insightful way. I really thought this was how the internet was going to go, one big giant series of documentary film. Instead it's just forced sponsored posts and how life is so hunky-dory. I miss the having the opportunity to experience something I know nothing about. Or see how other folks handle circumstances and maybe I could learn something. It's so glossy now, like reading a magazine. It's an adjustment, that's for sure.

      I have some Gap maternity stuff, I switched over to Old Navy plus size because there are more options but I have a couple t-shirts I love. That just reminds me how much I miss the Gap. Maybe one day.

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    2. I SO agree re: blogs (and Cami - ugh). It would be so refreshing to see that kind of writing again, esp here!!

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  9. Fabulous to visit you again here - I remember reading this blog during my lunch breaks in my office at work , and given I left that office in 2002 it must be 10 years at least. So nice to be back.

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    1. Well now you're just making me feel old, lol.

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  10. I'm so glad you're back! I've been reading since the begining too.

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  11. So glad you're back and that Shauna linked to you. I would have never known. Looking forward to your posts again.

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    1. Shauna is about as sweet as they come. Thanks for reading me again.

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  12. I was so happy to find you again! I have to say, seeing the blog title instantly brought me back to college, reading your blog from my parents house.

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    1. Thanks Jenn, I feel old all the sudden ;-)

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    2. Not my intention at all, but it made me feel old too :)

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